Another Sea Change

Life, I think, gets very dramatic for me in mid June.

Last year, on this day, my wife moved out of the house.

Also, on this day, I took the day long intensive at the studio, and began that road, which is a possible long one.

Yesterday, I also did some things that could be impactfull on my life.

First, I ran three miles.

It nearly broke me down. I'm out of shape.

However, I did it.

I thought before I even hit mile one that I couldn't do this, but I stuck it out. I even pushed myself at the end, when I thought I might quit, to run faster, because I could see the finish line.

A young kid I was running with thought my speed push was a race, and started to run faster with me, challenging me. I not only kept up, I didn't let him pass me.

In that moment of break through, I felt exhilarated. I knew then that I was going to run this fucking marathon. That, and, I was going to be doing it for me.

Then, my next big thing was I went to church.

After the run, we were talking about the rest of our day. TO mentioned she was going to church with a friend, and I asked her if it was the church her and I had talked about. She said no, it was a new church, but remembering our conversation, she invited me along.

I said, Ok.

Then, due to a snafu, she called later and said they changed the service times, and she was going inside right now. I wouldn't be able to join her. She said the next service was at noon, but she couldn't go to that one. She apologized. I said don't worry.

Then, I went to the noon service by myself.

It is a hip, non denominational church, and they start off with a rock band and choir. I must say, for all the up with people feeling I was getting (not good), I did find the music quite good.

Then, the pastor came out. He was a guy not much older than me, and dressed just like me.

His sermon was really quite good. He made it very clear how it related to today's world, and even was funny.

There was a lot of talk about Jesus within you, and the greatness of worship, and I just don't get that. I tried to feel special by being there, and I really want some sort of spirituality inside me, but it wasn't working yesterday. Maybe over time that develops, or maybe I've gone too long for it to take root, but I think I will keep at it, and see what may come of it.

So, there's that.

Anyone else?