So Close

I am so close I can taste it.

Things between TO and I sort of took a turn, I think.

The night before, as I said, we were talking. I was encouraging her to do the next soap, and discussing her character for it. I told her I wanted her to do it, because then she would fulfill the requirements and move up to the troupe I am in now. I told her I wanted her in that troupe with me.

We emailed yesterday further about her character. We both got really excited about it. She sent the email off to our director. He is hemming about it.

Then, last night, she was just so warm and always engaging me. She drank freely of my drink, and would touch me, and rub my back or squeeze my leg. There were signals all over the place.

Even when jokes about her boyfriend or other guys would come up, she would go with the joke, and then lean over and pat my leg, or squeeze it.

I was in heaven.

She even talked me into training with her to run the Las Vegas marathon. She wants me to do it. I guess I am getting up tomorrow and meeting her at 7am to run three miles.

Did you read that correctly?!

Me. 7am. Running! Miles!! 3 of them!!!

Then, she talked with BB, a good friend of mine. He always tells me she is crazy about me, and predicts we will be together.

They were having a serious conversation, and for a moment I thought he had been playing me earlier like a friend to figure out my moves and trump me.

I was ready to ask him if we are in competition, when he came over to me.

He leaned in and said he had been grilling her about her boyfriend to find out for me where things stand between them.

He said that apparently they didn't get along very well in Paris. Things are tough between them right now. She doesn't know what to do.

Then he said this:

The BF was trying to get into grad school over there and didn't get in. He is coming home this Wednesday.

THIS WEDNESDAY!

No.

I'm almost there!

Now it gets tricky.

Part of me needs to make things super clear for her. Yet, part of me says let it be, let it go.

Let it be, let it go seems to be working, but as a man I feel like being a bit more aggressive.

Also, you can't always sit back and wait. Sometimes waiting is just waiting for the right moment to act.

I don't know.

He'll probably be at next week's show, so that moment would be ruined. I would have to take my moment during the training.

Good God.

My moment is going to be at 7am on a Sunday morning!!!!!

Or, after I have just ran 3 miles!

Who is scheduling my life? I need someone else to do it, because whoever is giving me these time slots is NOT doing me any favors!