Speaking the Want

Great quote from a song:

If you want something, don't ask for nothing. If you want nothing, don't ask for something.

A while back, in the shower I remember, I thought about myself. (Hey, this is clean, don't go to those thoughts!) I thought about what I wanted. I wanted the film talk pilot, and the girl.

I had gotten a callback, and had an electric night with her. I decided I wanted both. Imagined getting both. Went with the concept that what you think and what you say are very tangible, and putting out the right thoughts and words can make a difference.

After a few days, I hadn't heard from the film talk folks, and thought, oh well, nice try.

Still, went for the girl.

Yesterday, the film talk folks called. I got it. Just the pilot for now, but I am already saying that I want it as my job. I am thinking that, and saying that, and it WILL happen.

Also, I feel like this is happening with the girl. I am not entirely sure, email is a tricky thing when it comes to jokes and tone. She could just be joking, but I don't think so.

My gut says she wants me, and I want her.

I just sent another email off to her. She had responded to my second, and a bit racy too. I thought I wouldn't respond to her via email, but I just can't get her out of my mind. I can't wait until Thursday.

Went to a party that she was supposed to be at last night, but she hadn't shown. So, I wrote her that I went and wished she had been there. Told her that I guess I have to wait until Thursday, and that drinks are a go.

I wanted to say to her, what is this between us, and let's go with it.

That isn't for the email, that is for in person. Especially, if it goes well.

My thoughts and my words are creating reality. I want to tell the story I want to hear. I will make that story true.

I want the pilot, and I want the girl.