The firewall inside

So, I don't really write here anymore.

I think part of that is because for some reason the cookies on my home computer have been messed up, and I can't sign in on that computer. Blogger won't recognize me no matter what I do.

Right now, I am at work, and that isn't the best place to really write your inner most feelings.

Then again, I don't know if I am up for revealing the inner most. The past few blogs have been more action based than feeling. I think doing this blog has caused healing inside, but part of that healing is a closing off a bit.

I'm a little less in need of validation for my vulnerabilities. Partly because I give myself that validation, and partly because I am seeking it in a human form, rather than this removed experience.

Even my other blog is less vulnerable. I do write there more often, but they are surface level observations.

I have a date this Sunday. A girl whom I met a couple of years ago, and had a spark with, and an intense hour long conversation. She came to the theater where I perform a few weeks ago, and I tracked her down. I'm looking forward to this. I know it has been two years, and a lot can change in a person. Hell, I'm the living example, but she was really cool, and seems to still be.

I wouldn't mind having a girlfriend. So, let's see. Here's hopin'.

Well, I guess that's all for now.

I might come back, I might not. I'm tossing around the idea of letting this go. Part of me just writes here because I am neurotic, and I would hate to have a gap in the dates listed on the side in the archives section. I have every month in consecutive order from July '05 to now.

Then again, that's no reason to share... so.... we'll see.

peace