Inflexible

The meaning of the word is unyielding, rigid.

It is also the attitude of the doctor.

Today, I went to get my knee checked. My flexibility is such, that he said running a marathon will do terrible damage. Maybe not now, but enough now to really, really hurt when I'm old.

I kept trying to get around the premise of not running, but he always returned to it. Finally, after being worn down, like my knee ligament, he said I may be able to do one if I take yoga for a year. Just not the one this December. After some combat, he left me with some stretches to do for three weeks, and then I go back to him.

So, I think the running has ended.

I don't know if it has set in yet. What a dream, only just begun, now maybe gone.

Ironically, during my visit, my phone rang. I ignored it, and when I got out of the building, I checked to see who was calling. It was TO.

She was calling to chat. She said she misses me, and doesn't ever get to talk with me anymore.

I called her back, and we talked for a half hour, and then went to lunch with another of our running group.

It was great.

The funny thing was during the past few days, mostly on the long drives to and from Vegas, I was assessing the situation, and convincing myself the best thing is to give it all up. I just didn't see her relationship ending, and I just don't want to be a guy in the wings.

I don't know if what happened today does change anything, but I think I will return to the motto let it be, let it go. Therefore, trying to be present with what may come, but not holding in a pattern that won't go anywhere.

Flexible.

Unlike my body. And my doc.