You Go Girl

Boy did she do it.

Shooz, my dear friend has gotten me an actual, bona fide audition.

For a real live movie.

She works with the casting people, and dropped my headshot with perfect timing.

I am going up for the role of a confident gay man, who is pursuing a less confident man.

The less confident man is the star, Jason Connery.

I am playing confident to James Bond's son! Me!

Actually, the role is good for me. Very sarcastic. Comic relief with tender vulnerability.

I am trying to approach it with my successful "fuck it" theory.

I have been analyzing the script and read through this morning with a friend. He said I needed to develop a stronger as if.

That's where you replace what you're doing or feeling in the scene with something that actually happened to you. It's "as if" that situation were happening again.

Rather than try to seduce Connery, I am using an as if person to seduce.

This may be telling, or not, but when he said get a good as if, I immediately thought of TO. So did he.

He knows about how I felt, but thinks it ended long ago. Still, she was the one he said I should use. Too bad she won't be at rehearsal tonight. I could use some recent memory material for tomorrow.

Well, still and all, the fuck it approach says just be glad to do this, and have a good time. So far, I'm right on track.

Me! Confident against Bond blood! Ha!