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Man, I have been horny lately.

I look back at my posts, and I think maybe the reason I've been thinking of my ex is I ain't gettin any, and she was the last.

I keep trying to think of where I can find some girl who is cool, but also just looking to get her rocks off. I really don't want a huge thing right now. Just a toss.

Grrr.

The show went well last night. I feel I got my character back into a integral situation. Good thing. The last show is next week.

The director came up to me after the show. This is a man who is not normally a very communicative person. A nice guy, but pretty quite and reserved. He came up and told me I had a good show, and then said that he felt I was an actor's improviser. He said that I always have solid characters that I totally invest myself into.

That really made me feel good. It is true. I do try and totally invest myself. I try to disappear. Ironically, the best way to disappear is to make the person you are hiding in almost totally like you. They are still someone else, but so similar that you rock when doing them.

My next characters are still very much aspects of me, but not the uber self that my current character seems to be.

I had a dream last night. I dreamt that TO and I were just hanging around one of our's apartment working on whomever's computer, and we were just lounging, holding hands.

It seemed so real and so nice. I don't really still have the torch for her. I act totally sane around her, but I did think the other night, while she was pitching her character, that she is just one of the cutest goddamn girls I know. She was doing this little chirp thing to make a point with her character, and I just wanted to walk over and hug and kiss her.

She knows how I feel, and realizes that I'm totally cool about it, but...

Anyway, it will be fun to do the show with her. We will become better friends. I hope to achieve that. Even if I don't get to hug and kiss her. Or even fucking hold her hand.

Wow. I really do need to get laid.