Be Me, See Me

I picked out my new headshots. It was a tough decision, and I still at times change my mind, but I think I chose well.

A big influence was my class last night. We talked about how in TV and film, the real trick is to just be yourself. The camera catches so much nuance, that it is hard to disguise yourself and still be real, or believable.

The upside is, however, that just being yourself is perfect. The whole "you are unique" thing is true, and if you can just be you, people will love it.

So, armed with that confidence in being me, I went home and chose the shots I thought were just me.

Also, in class, I was feeling like I am the best one there. We did a couple of scenes, and most guys couldn't hear the rhythm of it, or if they did, they overacted, or something else.

I am doing less overacting, and more just being. I have more work to do on really translating that to camera, but I am getting there. I was pleased with my work, and some of my class mates said it was very genuine.

Hopefully, I chose shots well. Shots that will excite the casting people, and also give them an idea of who I am before I walk into their office. Then, when I come in... bam. Me. Just what they want.

It would be nice to finally start creating a modest beginning of a career. I'm not asking for stardom, just something to happen that makes me feel like I am going down the right path, and not wasting my time.

Plus, I really need the money. Taking all this time off for my acting is taking a bite, and when I do work, it is slow. I still have some savings, but I always get nervous with money, and I would rather have a cushion to keep me focused on what I want, rather than second guessing my art for the sake of bills and unknown expenses.

Hell, I'm not asking for millions. I mean, if you're giving away millions, I'll take it, but, all I really need is a small number in the thousands.

Yeah, like who doesn't?