Nobody knows, really

Boy, have I been busy.

Did a mystery show today on the Queen Mary. One thing, but not the only thing, I love about this show is all the cool places in LA I'm getting to see because we have a show there.

Anyway, did the show.

There are different levels of people in the company. Some new, some who have been around 10 years, some for 20. We all interchange. Well, everytime the newbies work with anyone who has "been around", we always hear, " You should do it this way, it works better this way."

Well, maybe it does, but the thing is... who knows. Maybe, by chance, we come across some new way of doing it that still works, or, dare I say, works better. The thing is, how are you going to find it if you don't try? You have to be willing to risk the fall to maybe find the even better thing.

Don't get me wrong. I love doing this show. A guy could get addicted to making his cash doing the thing he loves. It's just that I would like to do it my way. You know?

Well, the same thing goes with life.

The great thing about this blog is I get to write down my inner thoughts. Work them out, so to say. Also, some people get to read it. Kind of interesting situation, having people know the inner real you. However, it also makes for them to realize that sometimes you have shallow, one-track thoughts. Oh well. Sometimes I do. I obsess about something. So what.

I've had a few people come up to me this week and tell me to forget about TO. They tell me that it was a fun thing for a while, but now it isn't working. Or, to beware because of her morals. If I could steal her, then the same will happen to me.

But, how do you know?

You don't. Nobody does.

Sure, I have thought of all of that. Also, I am most likely laying off of the situtation for the time being. Not stopping feeling, just not acting on it. I couldn't control my feelings. If you know how, tell me. I could use it both in real life, and acting.

The thing is though, I have to try. What if this was the best thing ever to happen, but I didn't try because it works better the other way? You see?

Over and over I get these chain mail things that give affirmations for life, and tell you to pass them on. Or I read affirmations from knowledgable people. Always they include the following one:

Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

I agree.

I would add art to that as well.

Because, life is short man. Get out there and risk!

Who knows?

Nobody, until you do it.