The Power of the Mind and of God

Well, it worked.

I told myself I was not in a funk. Told myself that all day.

Then, the show went great.

I thought we would have a crap audience. Good Friday. Bunch of people were calling me saying are you even having a show tonight.

Easter weekend. People are out of town.

Rain. LA people hate leaving their homes when it rains. Water melts them. Seriously, the plastic surgery isn't made to withstand water.

In stead, we had a huge crowd. About 80 people. Energized too.

The newbies all came alive. They just started having fun. It was a great time. I had fun, and did well too.

Ah, the power of the mind. Over and over again, I realize that lesson. What you tell yourself is what you believe.

So... funk over. Now. That's it.

Oh, the power of God.

Well, after the show, my usual crowd was not there, so I sat with the cast. I sat with TO to be exact. Her BF is out of town, so we could sit and talk.

She was wondering aloud earlier in the night if dating someone five years younger is a problem. My ears perked up when she said that. Could there be a rift?

I told her not to worry. I said my first girlfriend was five years older than me.

She asked what happened.

I said the relationship didn't work because I was too young.

Got cha!

After the show, we were talking about the show. Then, I mentioned church. Or asked her what she was doing on Easter, and she said going to church, and I started to talk to her about it.

She had mentioned before that she goes to this really progressive, intellectual church in Pasadena.

So, I asked her more about it.

A few years back, I really got desperate for some sort of spirituality in my life. I started reading books about Jesus and the bible. Not reading the actual bible, but books about the bible.

Never really found what I was looking for.

Thought often about going to church, but I hate the hypocrisy of it all, and didn't think I would find one without it.

TO, however, seems intelligent, and not the type to fall for crap. Not counting her boyfriend. Badum-cha!

Anyway, we got to talking about her church, and about our beliefs, and the next thing I knew, we were having this great, intense conversation all to ourselves. I loved it. Both for the chance to just talk to her alone, and for the content.

So, I've decided to go to church with her. We thought Easter wouldn't be a great time for the first introduction, but as I write this, I wish I had said yes to Easter. I kind of wish to do something tomorrow, and church with all of it's ceremony would be great.

I just texted her asking if I could go. As I wrote this, I thought what the hell. Change your mind. It is never too late.

We'll see if she responds.

So, that was my night.

Was I using God to get close to her, or was I getting close to her because I am looking for God?

We'll see.

Watch, God will already have a boyfriend too.