I'm Alive

Ok, maybe my last post was not the sort of post to leave up and then disappear for three days.

Oops.

Well, I'm ok.

I was pretty drained all day Wednesday. Emotionally, as well as physically.

Got home from work that night and I had a call from my acting teacher and X.

My teacher said he felt bad for me, and would use some of his commercial contacts to still help me get an agent. Commercial, not theatrical (which I really want), but I will surely take what I can get. That made me feel good. I was slightly worried that I might be in his bad graces.

X apologized for the way she navigated the evening. She said she was worried that she indulged in her own feelings at the expense of others, and said she hasn't done this before and doesn't know what is "right".

I wrote to her saying I understood. I thanked her for the apology and the consideration, and told her that I went out there to support her, and I knew he would be there. It was her day, and we don't get "days" too often, so I told her she was right to indulge a bit. Not to worry. It was nice to have her say that though.

Thursday, I set out to create my next improv character. Had a lot of fun doing that. Spent a lot of money, but it's all a write off, and it made me have some creative fun. Once again, this show has taken away my pain and given me salvation.

We did the first show last night. It went well. We had a full house, which I thought would happen.

It started out a bit rocky. Some of the new people are really shaky. This cast doesn't have the extreme connectivity and chemistry that the last one did. That last group was surely a magical pairing.

That said, we pulled it together near the end of the show. The director started to pair vets with newbies, and the scenes came alive.

My character was well received. One girl from the last cast said she thought this was my best character to date. I was surprised by that.

Also, the owner of the theatre loved it. He can be fickle about his feelings toward your characters and how that then relates to his feelings about you as a person. Plainly speaking, if he likes your character, he likes you. If he doesn't, he doesn't.

He loved my last character, and has treated me like one of his best friends. I wondered how my next could hold up to the last, but I guess he passed the test. That felt good.

Now, I am trying to finish up my divorce papers. I have all but the community assets listed. That is just a time consumer, and a bore. Think I will put it off until Tues.

So, I'm back. Emotions healed.

You know, that which does not kill us...