Tough Christmas

This is not easy.

Didn't help that I had to work tonight. People were such assholes too. I mean c'mon, folks. It's Christmas eve, and you are making demands of people who don't want to be there! Look past yourself for God sakes!

I'm sitting here, on my fourth drink, wishing to just talk to someone.

My folks called and left a goofy song message. I wonder what they did tonight.

We used to always spend Christmas Eve with my mom's family. We would all go over to the Grandfolk's house, and exchange gifts, and drink, and eat, and crack jokes.

Then, it moved to our house. Still, all was great.

Then, the grandfolks died.

Then, all the aunts and uncles and their wives and husbands took over and all the Christmas Eve's started to change. Still, they were family gathering to have fun, but sometimes there was no drinking and the night would end quick. Sometimes there was no food, and the night would get sloppy from booze.

Then, an uncle died. Then, an aunt died.

Then, the other's said we don't like you. Now, there is no more Christmas Eve.

At work, I tried to talk with people, coworkers afterwards, but many were trying to get somewhere and didn't want to stick around. I also had to make the rounds of animal sitting, so I needed to leave.

Tomorrow, on Christmas, I'm going to wake up alone for the first time ever in my life.

I've always either had a girlfriend, or have been at home. Not this year.

Later in the afternoon, I'm going to go to TH's house and open that expensive bottle of wine, the Opus 1. That will be nice. Maybe I'll bring a cigar. I don't know. Wouldn't want to spoil the taste of the wine with a strong cigar.

Then dinner at Benihana.

That will be all right. Not great. There is a bit of a tiff going on between MM and TH, and I don't want to be a part of it. Then, whenever MM is with MW, he always acts insecure, which I hate, and that makes me resent MW like it is her fault, when MM should just grow a pair of balls and tell things like he wants.

Yeah, so, as you can tell, it is going to be a unique Christmas.

I could deal with all the rest if I just didn't feel so alone.