The problem is...

I just feel lonely. I know that part of making yourself attractive is getting to a point where you don't need someone, but that is bullshit really. We all need someone.

I feel like I have filled my life right now. Then, like tonight, I get done with a show, and everyone goes to wherever they want to go, and I sit there talking to some schlub because I don't want to go home alone. I would rather have left and come to someone who I desire's house. Or, have them show up and join me.

Maybe that is a weakness. If so, then color me weak!