The girls in my life

This is a list that is in no particular order.


There is the girl that will never be. She sees me as a friend, and I see her as someone I should only think of as a friend, but don't.

There is the girl who I doubt. I'm told she is funny and that we will get along, but when I talk to her she bores me. I try to keep an open mind, but I'm starting to wonder about the person who tells me she is great.

There is the girl who I think would be fun. Emotional, exotic, talented, spontaneous, and joyful. I don't know if it is wrong to tell her, even though I think she has a crush on me. The problem is... I'm not supposed to date her.

There is the girl who I feel a tremendous connection with, and at the same time, a tremendous divide with. This is the one that seems to be working, and I fear it will only lead to heartbreak. Yet, I can't stop advancing.

There is the girl who is emotionally raw, and brilliant at the same time. She might not even consider me, but I often think of her, and I can't even let her know.

There is the girl who I think I have let all feelings go. Then I touch her, and some spark ignites and I just try to kill it. It will never be.

There is the girl who is dating another. We are open about our mutual crush, but she is strong, and I wouldn't want it any other way. Still, when she nestles in the crook of my arm, I can't help but get erect and wonder what if.

There is the girl who she introduced me to and for a second I thought there might be something there. Then she turned away. Still, while saying goodbye to her, for she does live on the East Coast, I thought again that maybe there was a chance. Too late. You shouldn't have turned away.

There is the girl who I don't like. She won't admit she likes me, but I can tell she does. I hope she never admits it. She came close today.

There is the girl who I said goodbye to tonight. She makes me blush with her frankness, and she often challenges me, but I think she is actually crazy and too, too, too young. Still, there was a moment when I thought things might go in a very weird and delicious direction.

There is the girl who was and shall never be again. Sometimes you still pervade my thoughts.

There is the girl who I am waiting for. Do I already know you? When will you become apparent?